Friday, March 7, 2008

how i'm feeling

"Seung Sahn would say 'When you eat, just eat. When you read the newspaper, just read the newspaper. Don't do anything other than what you are doing.'

One day a student saw him reading the newspaper while he was eating. The student asked if this did not contradict his teaching. Seung Sahn said 'When you eat and read the newspaper, just eat and read the newspaper.'"

okay, yes, i'm reading a lot of Zen Buddhist philosophy these days. make of that what you will.

along with a lot of other things i've learned, i learned that i should do things with a whole heart. not halfsies. not comprimisies. not - without my full attention. that doesn't mean i'm unable to multi-task; in fact, i'm pretty good at multitasking. what i mean to say is that i have no intention of living my life in which i am not devoted to living.

without ambivalence.

so if that means i live without something because it is ambivalent, or because i cannot do it with a whole heart, then i won't be doing it.

here's hoping i will.

2 comments:

The said...

hahahaha

stalker :) just kidding!


I needed to read this post right now. I need to actually remind myself of what commitment is again and you reminded me to get back on that search. Thank you!

MJ's Slave said...

i needed a good Zen chuckle..thank you..i am the chronic multi-tasker..i love things that help me to focus and set aside all else..reading a bondage book and wishing i had someone to play with...that is where i get my best Zen moments! Who knew??

Have a great weekend!
~nik