drifting

"...I remember when,
I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space..."

-gnarls barkley

how do you lose me?

there was a moment, once, when i drifted away. i work hard to Stay In Place, to be there with you. i remember i said, through a curtain of tears, "i want to be done, now," and you gently moved me back into place because you were not done.

i think, sometimes, this is the crux of You and i.

because i can't ever decide if i want to drift, or to return, and i need you to make that decision for me.

some people, bottoms, masochists, submissives, whatever, play so that they *can* drift. they want to escape where they are, even if it's just long enough to gain some balance, some peace.

i can escape all on my own. what i need is to be connected to my Self, my body, my skin. bring me back down into me and Be Here Now.

with You.