Wednesday, February 6, 2008

comfortably numb

"i married a boxer to keep me from fighting
i married a brewer to keep me from drinking..."

-kristin hersh

there's a difference between being comfortable, and being numb. i spent a lot of time numb, complacent and resigned, in what i thought was the only available path for me.

you're doomed if you take the easy way. complacency and resignation are deadly.

i read something a while ago about the difference between "agreement" and "submission". if i agree that everything that's done to me is erotic and comfortable and makes me happy, then i am not submitting, i am *agreeing* to obey. i submit when i comply and obey and am forced to do things that i am not in agreement with.

there is no reasoning with dominance. there is no negotiation, no discussion, no caution.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I read this as being about trust, something I'm deep in the middle of.

With trust, there is no struggle, no thinking, no questioning, it just... is. Peaceful, calm, trusting...

Thank you...

Anonymous said...

Ironically, that is comforting and erotic.

Anonymous said...

I really liked this post, it's given me something to ponder...

~S

luna_lux said...

@sensual: yes, trust is there - both between individuals and for one's own self, too. and that's a hard place to get to, but also an amazing milestone on the path.

@Lord Zondar of the Plaid Pants, Brutal Demigod of Gor: thank you, Sir.

@spiral: i'd love to hear about it - i love triggering more thinks thunk.

crystalline said...

Yes! Exactly. This is a truth and key for me. i thank you for expressing so well what i haven't been able to, but knew.

i'll be back over your post quite a bit. Thank you again.

Anonymous said...

i loved this post when i read it at the other place.

there is no agreeance, it's just being, just doing, just living. I don't choose to be His slave, i just am what i am.

kirana said...

i like this.

Quite a lot, actually.

:::thinking:::