Saturday, June 28, 2008

thingness

i've been involved in some conversations on the 'net lately in which i've clarified my "major" kink (if indeed a person can have just one) as objectification. i thought it was control, but really, i suppose, that's just inherently a part of the basest element.

this isn't about being turned into a piece of furniture. that's not particularly hot in an of itself. i'm talking about losing one's person-hood, one's individuality, their sense of self and separate-ness from the rest of humanity.

i am too much inside my own head - i've always lived hard inside my skull, and i'm often told i think too much and too fast. i have always felt separate and alone and different and not-quite-with-the-pack. in a backwards kind of way, being objectified and turned inside out into something that i cannot achieve on my own brings me closer to the world around me and i am able to feel a part of it, and have a purpose.

we all wear masks, all the time. when you objectify me, mine is stripped off. i am then whole and home in my body and living in truth.

4 comments:

little a said...

Being turned into a piece of furniture...lol. I do love being a footrest.... footstool.... hassock... whathaveyou. Being on my knees with the feel of boots on my back reminds me blatantly of my place and actually reinforces my desire to be there.
I have sexualized this form of objectification. There does not need to be any literal sexual exchange, because this position (and the fact that it is highly eroticized for me) is an admission of my nature.... rather than a removal of my person-hood.
Funny, the things that make us tick, hmm?

Deity said...

objectification...*sigh*

it is easily the single, greatest, most succinctly impacting way to arouse the beast inside of me. it makes me very happy to learn of others (on the other side of the coin) who relish the idea of alchemy.

Anonymous said...

So wonderful that you have found out what really fires you. I wish you all the best for the future. Take care.

tina from Sweden

crystalline said...

"i am too much inside my own head - i've always lived hard inside my skull, and i'm often told i think too much and too fast. i have always felt separate and alone and different and not-quite-with-the-pack. in a backwards kind of way, being objectified and turned inside out into something that i cannot achieve on my own brings me closer to the world around me and i am able to feel a part of it, and have a purpose."

Yes, Yes, Yes. Thank you for so clearly stating why objectification works for you because it sure makes lots of sense. It gives a form to how we feel, perhaps?