happiness

"...happiness
is a warm gun..."

- The Beatles

how do you make someone happy? i'm asking this, and it's a two-sided question. part one involves is it possible to force, make, coerce, your property to change it's feelings? and part two, is it possible, or correct, to use the phrase, "you make me happy"?

i'm not always in a good mood. in fact, i've been characterized as moody, brooding, tempermental, sad. sometimes happy, balanced, too, but that's more recent. and sometimes i'm not having a good time. yes, i serve my owner happily most of the time, and it's gratifying to do so. sometimes i serve him and i am not happy about it. sometimes he has me do things i don't enjoy, and would otherwise not do. large gatherings (otherwise known as "parties") for example. i hate 'em, i'm no good at them. i'm a terrible wallflower, i have not much of interest to say to anyone, especially when i don't really know them. i'm - uh - shy.

i know this doesn't make him happy. it doesn't make me happy, either. so there we both are, not happy. and yet, we do make each other happy overall.

can he make me enjoy myself? no, but he can make me fake it. he doesn't like the faking it, either, though.

i suppose all property has it's limitations. you can't make a laundry machine cook your dinner, and you can't make your car be a nanny.

another reason i can't be at the other side of the dynamic, an owner, a dominant, a top, even, anymore. i don't understand what to do with someone else's limitations. is it trainable? forceable? i suppose somehow it's brainwash-able - to force me to somehow enjoy something i don't otherwise.

thinking about all this, in it's own ironic way, makes me happy though.