a long time ago i said something about not being interested in daddy/girl play - it's not my 'thing'. that's not - entirely true.
i've avoided this topic because it's so convoluted and twisted and uncomfortable and different from what i see a lot of other people doing with this dynamic.
most of the folks i see playing with a Daddy dynamic are doing something very cool. from what i can tell, they're getting a pretty nurturing, discipline-heavy kind of thing. the s-types in this dynamic (as i see them) have a need for a caretaker in some capacity, but one who on some level shows affection and love for them. the stone-cold Master isn't what they're looking for (or need, sometimes) - their reasons for submitting, obeying are about the affection they get from Daddy in return.
it's not like that for me.
my owner takes very, very good care of me. we walk a weird path that involves objectification, slavery, service, and a great deal of affection between two people. what i get from him is the same care and attention i see him giving his other valued posessions. there's an attention to detail, a *quality* to this that i'm attracted to ongoing. his posessions, his home, are so uniquely *his* - and i want to be a part of that. there's also a coldness to his treatment of me - a distance he somehow manages to maintain despite how close we are as individuals. i wonder at this ability, because it's one i've never posessed and rarely see in others.
my daddy isn't like that. he isn't cold, he isn't my friend, he isn't nice, and he doesn't take any care of me. he's a singular purpose of a man, one that takes extreme advantage with total disregard for my well being. my daddy mocks me, tortures me.
i don't know if this is role play or not when daddy arrives, because i am never as truly afraid as i am then. and that's the truth of it.
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Oh my...that is so fucking scary that it's hot!
Mmmm...I wonder if it hurts more when your daddy tortures you than when your owner does... I mean, of course they are the same person but you may feel more vulnerable when your daddy hurts you, if that makes any sense.
My Owner calls his nurturing persona Daddy, but I guess he's just caring for me, period--making sure I don't become too damaged to use. I was genuinely shocked when this Daddy character proved to have a really nasty and mean side (what a surprise, it's still the same man)...and he used and still uses that shock to his advantage.
Please, please could you write some more about this? It appears to be so much of a taboo...
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