the whole brat thing confuses me. cuteness, i get. whip-smart i get. i even get i'm-not-actually-submissive-but-i-am-a-slave. but i've never been able to wrap my brain around the brat concept. i mean, i get it from an intellectual standpoint (gosh knows you'll never find me saying something is *wrong* with it), i just can't seem to put myself into that particular role with any success. it doesn't come naturally.
i've been up and down and through all the thinking about why i do things my owner requires or directs when i don't want to. big things and little things. (last night, for example, he added more vegetables than i wanted to my plate. i ate them.) i don't think i'm in a place yet where i never ever consider not obeying - i can't claim internal enslavement. there's often a brief second or two of "but i don't wanna," before i do it.
so why? it's never been about love. it's sometimes about trust, but that's not really the constant.
i think the reason i do it, for him, is respect. every time i obey, even when i don't want to, it's about showing respect. he deserves that, i think. if i *don't* do whatever-it-is, then i am actively disrespectful. *that*, i don't want to do. i can't bear to think about how he would feel if i were disrespectful. and i guess in my twisted brain, brattiness is the ultimate show of disrespect.
no disrespect to anyone who likes brats, of course.
3 comments:
i can't say as i can help shed any light here because i don't get it either. i actually don't really know what it is to be a brat and sub or slave at the same time. Perhaps i need to find out before i can really think about it further. Thanks much for your post.
-crys
Ah-men!
Brats boggle my mind and always leaving me feeling, faintly, like I'm dealing with a teenager.
Carrie Ann
A view from the floor
Hmmm...... would bratiness be the same as sassiness?I know that for me I have a need for play, silliness and contrariness. I think, carrie ann, that it IS a way for me to embrace my teenage self, my childlike self.
For me this fits with in the framework of being a sub.... I tend to be highly impulsive, and don't always have the best judgement... so I look to my Dom to help set those boundaries for me. I would never truly show blatant disrespect.
I think perhaps that is the difference between those of us who "play" at D/s dynamics and those of us who cannot help but live any other way. I do not go out of my way to be a brat merely to incur punishment (which may work within the context of a scene) because then its not really a punishment, then... is it?
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